missjackil:

chiisana-sukima:

idontneedasymbol:

The best part of 13×11 was Sam actually emotionally reacting to something – and reacting in Sam’s way, which is to say, complete denial that he has a problem. Forget talking about his feelings, not when he’s feeling something like this. Dean at least cops to being down – Sam denies being depressed at all; it’s just that their lives are terrible.

(He’s not entirely wrong, is the problem, and Dean the pessimist is going to have a real hard time arguing that one. I’m starting to think what they’re both struggling with now is that everything isn’t going to hell, and neither of them actually have functional coping mechanisms in that situation. They pull out of their worst spots to save the world and/or each other; but now they’re both relatively safe and so is the planet, and…it’s like a crush injury; when the pressure is lifted, that’s when you can bleed out.)

Huh, I was just writing in tags that I liked how legitimately creepy this episode was, and combined with what you wrote above, it made me realize I liked it partly because it’s a nicely done example of the structural MotW elements fitting and reinforcing the emotional content. The bad guys are literally selling off people one piece at a time to monsters, and that’s kind of the Winchesters’ problem, all those monsters over the years have cut off their connection to humanity bit by bit, and poor Sam is at the edge of having his heart cut out. Ack. *makes myself cry pathetically*.

@idontneedasymbol I was thinking something similar … Recently, when Dean was temporarily dead, Billie told him to live, because he and Sam are important. This is something both of them should take comfort in, but neither did. Right now, mom is trappped in the AU but with Jack, the most powerful creature around, who has the ability to open the rift again, he just needs to remember how. Sure, they should want to actively try to rescue them, but they should take comfort in the fact that Jack has mom, and he’s a badass. To their knowledge Cas is fine and out doing his Cas thing. The world isnt about to explode, they should be able to take a breath right now, but now is when Sam breaks down. I think it is just like you said, when the pressure is released, then he starts bleeding out. We’ve seen throughout this season and last hints, or small moments of Sam’s emotions that he literally has sucked up and swallowed, there was always important work to be done. At the momentm theres nothing to do but wait and chase MOTWs

He wasnt wrong, his life sucks and people that know them get hurt. I think he felt like Dean was patronizing him by saying hes in “a dark place” Of course Dean didnt mean it that way, hes going through the same thing, but Sam may feel like, “Im not in a dark place… my whole existance is dark”

I hope we get to see more, and this doesnt just get let go