obsessionisaperfume:

I’m still Feeling Things about that conversation between Rowena and Sam.  I don’t think we’ve ever seen Rowena that open and honest around the Winchesters.  She wasn’t trying to impress with her power–that was the whole point of the scene, that despite the power she has, she was still terrified.

I mean, she called him Sam.  That knocked me back, because I can totally see her admitting to being scared in order to manipulate him, but somehow her use of his preferred name made her seem actually vulnerable, as opposed to pretending to be vulnerable, and yow.  

And Sam, opening up to her in a way he doesn’t with Dean, because Dean’s experience in hell was so different from his.  Rowena could get how he felt about Lucifer because she’d been his chew toy too, even if not for as long. Just the fact that Sam has someone to talk to now that isn’t Dean is huge, and something I’ve wanted to see for a long time.  I was SO happy when we found out he’d been talking to Eileen, and while I’m not ever going to be okay with the way she was snatched away from him, I’m glad to see him open up to Rowena. 

Sam’s been carrying that for so long, and I’m really happy he admitted that he’d been stuffing it down for years.  I think that’s a part of why he was so broken at the end of season 8–everything that was going on on top of all that hell trauma, along with the physical damage, was just too much, and the fact that Sam was able to function with al that going on is a testament to how strong he really is.