why-this-kolaveri-machi:

i haven’t watched 13.17 yet (actually i haven’t watched any of the last ten eps yet woops) but i came across a gifset about sam insisting on watching his cholesterol and

it’s kind of charming and also sad because in terms of ‘causes of high risk of mortality in sam winchester’s life’ a possible future slide into hyperlipidemia, hypertension and coronary disease in a decade or more is pretty low on the list

and yet it also makes total sense to me that he would worry about it because it is the one item on the list he has quite a bit of control over. he can’t prevent his long, steady slide into premature cognitive decline thanks to numerous head injuries; he can’t prevent the everpresent danger of one false move leading to a gruesome death as he hunts (i mean, he tried to, but apparently sam is a Traitor if he attempts at anything approaching self-preservation, so); he can’t help that his mind, body and soul are literally hanging together via angelic thread; he can’t help the ptsd or the hallucinations or the insomnia or his walking depression. but food? that’s one thing he can decide for himself. 

it reminds me of the time in early s7 when sam was in the middle of a florid psychotic break and he got into a fitness kick, trying to squeeze in a run/workout when he could. like he said in 7.02, he’s just “trying to hold onto the safety bar and ride it out.”