deancasbigbang:

Title: Crack the Shutters

Author: archofimagine

Artist: Supernatastic101

Rating: Explicit
Pairings: Dean/Cas (minor Sam/Steve Rogers)
Wordcount: 20000
Warnings/Tags: BDSM, rope play, bondage, light spanking, sub!Dean, dom!Cas, falling back in love, kid!fic, divorced!Destiel, love/hate relationship
Posting: 11/21/2018

Summary:

Dean Winchester has been divorced for two years – but he’s still having issues learning to live with that. He struggles with keeping active in the lives of his twins, Jack and Emma, and not trying to strangle his ex, Castiel. All of this while settling into a world where his dream job was taken away from him in a freak accident.

On the advice of a friend, he looks into online dating and stumbles upon a website geared towards BDSM play, instead of traditional dating. He’s intrigued, and quickly starts up a conversation with a Master that, after a few weeks, wants to meet him at a local club.

Unfortunately, while he’s starting to develop a new side of himself, he’s also starting to realize he might not hate his ex-husband as much as he thought he did.

“Dad!”

Dean looked up at the shout and immediately grinned at the sight of Jack running towards him from the elevator, a backpack on his shoulders. Dean hopped off of the tailgate and held his arms open, swooping Jack into his arms as soon as he was close and swinging the boy around once. Jack, who was the spitting image of Castiel, had a soft soul and unabashedly wore his heart on his sleeve. He loved fast and strong.

And he was a daddy’s boy through and through.

As soon as Jack’s feet were back on the ground, he was talking animatedly about the latest drawing he’d been working on. Jack was a big superhero fan, as well as a variety of computer and console video games, but since both of his father’s had a rule that his screen time was limited, he had quickly taken to drawing his own versions of his favorite characters.

“Wait wait wait… a batman comic?” Dean asked, interrupting the excited descriptions.

“I know! I have it on my tablet, I can’t wait to show you!”

The elevator dinged again, and before Dean could say anything else to Jack, Emma and Castiel were stepping off of the elevator and walking his direction. Where Jack was the spitting image of Cas… Emma was the female version of Dean. Sometimes he wondered how it was possible that it was like their surrogate’s genes hadn’t been involved at all. Looking at his children, the only time Dean could ever see glimpses of the woman, was in the wrinkle of Emma’s nose, and the shape of Jack’s ears.

“Emma bear,” Dean greeted, holding his arms out and pulling the girl close. She was a little less touchy-feely, in comparison to Jack, but thankfully still allowed her dad to take what little attention and love he could get. God, he missed them. “How’s it going, kiddo? Did you ace that karate test?”

Emma’s entire face lit up. “I kicked Tyler’s butt. Had him flat out and pinned in seventy-eight seconds!”

Dean high-fived the girl. “Way to go. Uncle Sam invited us over for dinner. I’m sure Uncle Steve would love to see your moves.”

She leaned forward and whispered for only Dean to hear, “I’m gonna kick his ass.”

noorskitchen:

One of the most challenging things I’ve had to learn is that healing must be intentional. There is no one golden day that comes and saves you from all your misery. Healing is a practice. You have to decide that it’s what you want to do and actively do it. You have to make a habit out of it. Once I learned that, I only looked back to see how far I came.

Just a reminder

flyingfloatingfree:

If you have ceased contact with a toxic person, you do not owe anyone an explanation.

Doesn’t matter if they are a family member or close family friend. Doesn’t matter if they are a friend or acquaintance of yours. If you sense the slightest hint that they do not approve of your estrangement and they are not going to be there for you, all you need to say is:

“I don’t feel comfortable discussing it”

People who were emotionally abused have spent far too long defending themselves. Justifying their own feelings. Trying to make others see and understand what they went through.

You don’t have to do this anymore. 

❤

Dear Neil, Do you know what “queer” means as a sexual orientation that is distinct from the categories heterosexual/straight, gay/lesbian, or bisexual? I have a number of students who self identify in this way. I want to be sensitive to them and I don’t know what this means. I asked my gay brother and he thought it might mean people who are in touch with and comfortable enough with their sexuality to participate in activities/behaviors that a minority of people would enjoy. Do you know? Thnx!

neil-gaiman:

The best definition I ever saw was on my daughter Holly’s Tumblr feed.  (Holly identifies as queer.)  http://hollyloveholly.tumblr.com/post/26567309332/queerness-to-me-is-about-far-more-than