deancasbigbang:

Title: The Same Mistake, Again
Author: zaphodsgirl
Artist: Subtextiel
Rating: Mature
Pairings: Dean/Cas, brief Dean/Lisa, past Dean/Nick, past Castiel/Inias
Wordcount: 50000
Warnings/Tags: Underage Kissing, AU – Modern Setting, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Mutual Pining, Amnesia, Be Careful What You Wish For, Fairy Godmothers, Dean is Bad at Feelings, Not So Much Gay Panic As Gay Pondering
Posting: 11/5/2018

Summary:

One night, after watching Dean pick up yet another girl while they’re out at a bar, Cas heads to the local diner. Over the years his feelings of attraction have only deepened into something more, and he wishes desperately to go back to the time before he was in love with his best friend. His wish is granted in an unexpected way: he wakes up in the hospital the next morning with broken limbs – an arm and a leg- and a fractured memory with the last four years missing.

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Dean had always been nice to him, but Cas had a feeling his goodwill wouldn’t last when the truth came out. “I don’t think that would be wise,” he hedged, wondering if his new roommate would be the tolerant type. Or at least less attractive. Did it make him a bad person to wish for an ugly roommate?

“What? Why not? I think we’d get along great if you got to know me better. Or at all, even.”

“I think my sexual orientation would make you uncomfortable,” he’d blurted, preparing for the worst. There was no point keeping it a secret any longer, since he was on his way out, and maybe Dean would just back off and leave him be.

“What’s that got to do with anything?” Dean had sounded so incredulous that Cas paused, turning to him with a pair of sweatpants in his hands. “I don’t care about that, dude, whatever it is. You’d know that already if I were around more, I guess.” He ran his hands through hair, then leaned onto his knees to look Cas in the eye. “Listen. Let’s go over to the housing office and talk to them about this. I really don’t want to spend the rest of the year with Captain Righteous, and even if you don’t want to braid each other’s hair every night I much prefer your company.”

“You never even accepted my friend request.” It was a stupid thing to say, but it was always in the back of his mind whenever Dean was nice to him.

“On Facebook? You sent me one? Aw, man, I’m sorry. I’m terrible with social media stuff, I don’t think I’ve even opened it for months!”

Cas had blinked stupidly at him, at a loss for what to say. Dean squirmed uncomfortably.

“Unless…unless you really don’t want to room with me?” He asked this last part rather timidly, as though it hadn’t actually occurred to him, and just like that everything changed for Cas. For the first time he saw past Dean’s outward veneer and glimpsed the one beneath it: shy, unsure, and maybe just as vulnerable as he was.

“I think I would like to, actually.”

Dean smiled fully then, and Cas felt his heart skip a beat before he shook himself. He couldn’t be perving on his roommate if he didn’t want to go back to having an awkward living situation. It might help if you actually got to know him better. Familiarity breeds contempt and all that. He didn’t know, then, that familiarity can also shape a thing to you in a way that makes anything else seem like a poor substitute. That familiarity is what makes a pillow mold to your head just right, or favorite pair of jeans so comfortable, or a person feel like there’s no one else for you but them.

deancasbigbang:

Title: The Volunteer
Author: thatwriterlady
Artist: Diminuel
Rating: Explicit
Pairings: Dean/Cas, mention of Sam/Eileen, mention of Mary/John
Wordcount: 29300
Warnings/Tags: Truemates, Falling In Love, Self-Esteem Issues, Mention of Loss, Depressed Character, Devotion, Alpha Dean, Omega Castiel, Fluff, Smut
Posting: 11/5/2018

Summary:

Dean visits his brother on occasion at the hospital where Sam works in the maternity ward as a doctor. This time turns out to be different. He’s only ever heard his brother talk about the mysterious Omega that volunteers in the NICU to hold the preemie pups, and help them want to live. On this day Dean happens to meet the mysterious Omega, and it changes his life. The quiet, reclusive man is his truemate, and he isn’t as happy about that as Dean is. It will take some patience and a whole lot of love to convince Castiel that he is worth having as a mate. Dean has his work cut out for him, but he doesn’t care, he’d do anything for his truemate.

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Sam stood outside the NICU watching as Castiel rocked gently in the glider chair. His shirt was open and he had a tiny pup pressed against his chest. Little Abigail Norman. She was six weeks old now, though she’d been born almost six weeks premature. Her little hand was in her mouth and her eyes, the most beautiful chocolate brown, were wide open as she sucked away on her fingers. The Omega was stroking his fingers gently up and down her back, smiling softly as he soothed the tiny pup. He knew she was one of Castiel’s favorites. She’d struggled so hard in the beginning. After her mother had given her up for adoption, essentially walking out on her, she’d had failure to thrive. Her doctor and the nurses had all done everything they could to try and save her, but it was Castiel who managed to make her want to fight to live. She was almost ready to be released. It broke his heart knowing she didn’t have a home to go to, but she wasn’t the first pup to come through here that had been given up by their parents, and she wouldn’t be the last.

“Hey, Sammy, you free to join me for lunch?”

He turned away from the window to see his brother approaching.

“Uh,” he checked his watch, “I’ll be free in a few. I have a patient to check on. Give me five?”

Dean nodded and watched as Sam headed around the corner. He looked into the NICU window, his eyes landing on the man sitting with the pup cradled against his chest. There was something both beautiful and intimate about it, and he was intrigued. He wondered if this was the volunteer Sam had mentioned a few times over the years. The man looked up, his blue eyes locking on Dean’s own green ones. It sent something that felt like an electric shock through him. He’d already figured the man was an Omega, based on where he was and what he was doing, but he’d never had such a reaction to one before. More than anything he wanted to go in there, to scent the man, but if this was the Omega Sam had mentioned, the man would be offended.

“He’s saved her life.”

Dean jumped at the sound of his brother’s voice and turned to see that Sam was standing next to him.

“This is that Omega volunteer you talked about, right?” Dean asked.

“Yeah, Castiel. I don’t really know his story. He showed up here about 15 years ago, long before I started here and just offered to volunteer to cuddle the pups that were really in critical care. Thanks to him, many of them have gone on to thrive and survive. He has cried and mourned every one that didn’t make it,” Sam replied.

“He doesn’t look all that old.” Dean noted. “Is he mated?”

Sam side-eyed him, pursing his lips. “Don’t go there. No, he is not mated. I don’t know how old he is. He’s older than me, that’s all that I know.”

Dean turned back to look at Castiel again and found the Omega still watching him. A nurse had come to take the pup he’d been holding, and now he was cradling one that was barely bigger than his hand, holding it against his chest as he stroked a finger against its cheek. There were so many wires Dean could hardly see the pup itself.

“Why is he staring at me?”

“I don’t really know, he never does that. Usually he focuses 100% on the pups. If he feels up to talking later, he might say something.” Sam sighed and turned away from the window. “I have an hour, let’s go down to the cafeteria.”

“Cool. I’m starving.” Dean gave one last glance back at the Omega with the bright blue eyes. Castiel was beautiful, though there was something in his eyes, something that spoke of heartache, and he found himself wondering what it was. With a sigh he followed after his brother, not knowing if he’d ever see the gorgeous, haunted Omega again.