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Title: About Five Times The Distance

Author: cuddlemonsterdean

Artist: carolinasacco

Rating: Explicit

Length: 46k

Pairings: Dean/Castiel (Sam/Eileen, Mary/AU!Bobby (mentioned))

Warnings: Canon-level violence, PTSD, Anxiety, Flashbacks and Nightmares

It’s been months since Michael unexpectedly let Dean go, but he’s still dealing with the mental and physical repercussions, some of which have turned out to be permanent. He’s had to adjust how to deal with hunts and that he likely won’t ever be at a 100% again. On the upside, he and Cas are close now in a way that he’d never dared hope for, have made it clear how they feel for each other. Dean’s greedy for every bit of affection they share, helplessly wanting more but unsure if Cas wants the same. Dean’s family got him back and he’s got them, but they’re all dealing with their own respective issues and hang-ups, and when they – Cas, Dean, Sam, Eileen, and Jack – embark on a case of missing homeless people in San Diego, it all comes bubbling to the surface.

This case fic follows Dean and Cas as they develop their relationship and establish intimacy, and while there’s angst, the story is focused on healing and closeness, and there’s a happy ending.

Link to fic

Link to art (one art piece is slightly NSFW)

Uggh

I hate never knowing what kind of day I’m gonna have until I wake up.

I hate never knowing what’s gonna set me off and trigger my anxiety and/or depression

I’m bitter and whiny cause I had a shitty dream that left me awake at 4 am and feeling totally meh and here I am 3 hours later and I’m still pretty meh and I had so many plans for today and now I don’t know if I can get any of them done and should I try going back to sleep?

sorry, Tumblr.  I’m just super frustrated today.