
Title: Out of Ash, Shift and Save Me in the Night
Author: cymamoremocha
Artist: oh-cassie
Rating: Mature
Pairings: Dean/Cas
Wordcount: 24000
Warnings/Tags: Graphic Depiction of Violence, Dean Winchester/Castiel, Dean Winchester POV, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer, canon divergent, season 4, memory loss, slow burn, AU
Posting: 10/25/2018Summary:
Dean returns from Hell with an axe to grind. But he finds out pretty quickly just how damaging Hell trauma can be. Left humiliated and in a weakened state, Dean’s big plans to save the world are put on hold, as he now needs his brother to help glue his brain back together. And who is his mysterious rescuer? Is it the same person he dreams about at night but never actually met? Why can’t he remember?
The clicking slowed and stopped, like it forgot. Just like him.
Dean was in the shit this time, because apparently not only did he leave Sammy behind somewhere, he also fucked up the car somehow? He felt his heart beating so loud and so fast, it almost drowned out the persistent ringing in his ears he just noticed was there. Everything was too slowly coming back, and he didn’t comprehend it as a bad thing he couldn’t see Dad properly, like looking through the wrong end of a dirty telescope.
But he was still right there in the passenger seat, looking at him and not breathing in the way only ghosts and nightmares do. Dean finally remembers he has hands, and holds them up as he speaks, almost on autopilot.
“M’ sorry, Dad.”
“No, Dean,” is the reply he gets, much rougher and somehow at the same time gentler than Dad’s voice. Much more patient, anyway.
“M’ sorry, Dad.”
“You were in an accident.” Well that explains why he was in the car, but Dean only blinks. A reflex.
A pause where he probably could have said something. Was he dead?
“You don’t seem to have been seriously injured, but your mental awareness is still taking some time to recover. I’ve already called Sam, he’s on his way.” calm as anything.
Why was this news not affecting him? What’s wrong with him? Where’s Sam?
“You’re not Dad.”
“No, Dean.” A patient reply, but Dean doesn’t think to ask who, how, or why. There’s just an itch coming through that pegs this deep timbre inside him as the word familiar, and he can feel the heat of something radiating from the passenger seat and through him, settling to pulse like a second heartbeat in the space just above his right ear.
“But I know you.”
“Sometimes, yes.”
Dean doesn’t know whether to laugh or cry at that, so he turns his gaze away from his flexing fingers to look at the now sharpening outlines of the figure next to him. His already shaky peripherals waver and darken what must be the middle of the day, down to a single focal point: blue.
He remembers hearing lightning strike, but he never saw any. He must have dreamt about it. But who dreams about getting struck by lightning? His left arm tingles.
“Do you know where you are?”
Dean blinks heavily again and refocuses his gaze on what he now knows is the cassette deck, with Zeppelin side 1 ready to go. The radiator was still steaming and hissing weakly.
“The car?” like he still isn’t sure.
The not-stranger still doesn’t move, doesn’t shift his weight or anything, and Dean doesn’t know if that was the right answer or not. He feels tears erupt from his eyes and fall into his wringing hands, and he suddenly doesn’t want to see anymore.
“Do you know what you’re doing?” he asks, patient, but Dean can’t stop his tears.
“I’m sorry Dad, I was just-“
“DEAN!”








