This time of year sucks!

Yea, yea, I know Christmas cheer and presents and Christmas trees and lights and carols and all that jazz.

But when I left my house this morning, it was pitch black. I watched the sunrise just before I arrived at work. And when I left work, the sun was setting, and by the time I arrived home, it was pitch black again. I LITERALLY spent all of my daylight hours inside a building.

Seriously, the winter solstice is basically still a month away, I don’t know if I can do it.

Can’t I just hibernate until after December 21st??

The sadness that comes when you try to put together a wish list for Christmas but the only things you want aren’t things that can be gifted

Karate fails at reading

I misread a sentence in a fic I was reading to say “I didn’t know you were such a touch starved octopus” and I was like, woah, yes, I am this sentence is me!

And then I realized that the word octopus was in the sentence below and I was super disappointed.

Sadly, the fact remains, I am a touch starved octopus.

Uggh

I hate never knowing what kind of day I’m gonna have until I wake up.

I hate never knowing what’s gonna set me off and trigger my anxiety and/or depression

I’m bitter and whiny cause I had a shitty dream that left me awake at 4 am and feeling totally meh and here I am 3 hours later and I’m still pretty meh and I had so many plans for today and now I don’t know if I can get any of them done and should I try going back to sleep?

sorry, Tumblr. I’m just super frustrated today.

Trying to adult

I was doing really well…trying to clean…and do laundry…that I haven’t done in…more than I’m willing to admit on a public platform…but I hit this random point and _literally_ couldn’t continue…I feel like such a failure sometimes…I can’t even keep my house clean…